26th April last year, a sms has been delivered to his hp. Unfortunately, it can't reach him. He has gone forever to a better place than anyone of us have ever been without open and read the very last sms from me.
I often wonder what it would be like if he is still survived. He might has entering the University and study in the field that he likes.
My memory of our childhood were quite limited. But there are certain things that I will never forget about us. I remember, when he was still a little kid, we often asked him what he wanted to be when he grow up someday and his reply will always be the same-that he wants to be a Pilot =). He always become our follower whenever we went back to the kampung, when we are kids, we often having our meals together by sitting on the floor, sleep in a roll in the huge living room, teasing him with the girls that same age with him, play together at the Sungai (river) behind of their long house during evening time, celebrating Gawai together, hide behind him whenever there are the people who were drunk walked into their room (Although I'm elder than him, but his body are tall enough to cover the whole part of me.), he fried the chicken wings and sausage for us, granted my promise to him by treated him to KFC if he promised to stay healthier and come to visit us at Miri =) and bla bla bla... I miss those moment very much.
Brother, how are you up there? Can you see and hear us from there? Do you have an internet access to check your emails and read our messages & wall posts? Although you were physically away , but I hope you will know that You’re always in our heart. We Miss you, always.
"You must be strong ok! don't worry, you will be ok soon. I know you can do it!"-SMS pending to deliver on 7:10am 26th April 2011
A few hours after that, mum cried and told me, " He has leave us...."
Wendy said "Gasah Ko ko went to a very far place ...He has sleep and won't wake up because he was very tired. But I want play with him, can I go to find him?
He was called by God to back to his Kingdom in Heaven on 10am 25th April 2011.
After battle with Leukemia for more than 2 years, finally, he has leave us in peace. He was a brave guy. He was strong and tough. He never show us how painful is he, how tired is he. He never give up his life and he has become more mature to facing his days...Remember when I visit him last time, he told me, "BB, I'm not like before already. Nowaday, I become weaker and easier to get tired"...and last night, When Sis Xiao go to visit him, he don;t even show his tears to them...Instead, he welcome them will a very calm's smile. Sis has shown him Wendy & Johnny's pics. Sis Has asked if she could take his pictures and send to us. He said, ok. If put myself In his shoes, I don't think I could be that strong to face my days.
Now, It's time to wipe away our tears. I'm sure he doesn't want us to see us to be like this. Perhaps, I should think like this....God sent everyone come to this earth with a task. Once we completed our task, It will be our time to leave. Same goes to him. He has done with his task...Althought I'm don't know what was his task. But one thing for sure, he is one of the people that has walk into my life and delighted my days.
If I could see him, I wish he could see the very last sms that I have sent to him on the day before he leave us. I wish he could wait for me & mum before he goes...I wish I have the chance to teach and advice him when he entered Uni... I wish I could give him a big hug...I wish I could give him a ride...I wish I have a chance to treat him a meal, I wish he never leave us...
It's time to let him go and I knew It. May Our father in Heaven look after him, guide him and show him his place in His Kingdom. I know he won't be alone because angels is waiting for him & will keeps him accompanion along the way to the place call Heaven. don't worry about us. We will be ok.We will take care of your family too. Please do not forgot about us, because sooner or later, we will meet & reunion with you again in Our Father's place. Amen.
"Sending failed"- Delivery report received on 7:10am 27th April 2011.
I'm Back! Thanks for keep on following me in my blog.
Due to an U N E X P E C T E D reason, I've finally make a very tough decision to move my blog and start all over again here.
Well, I guess it's better for me to Re-introduce Myself again (What? Not interested to know a?Oiks... give face a bit la k!!....) For those who are 1st time to get know me, I would like to say .....WELCOME to MY LIFE!! Cheerss~
Okay, Let's start.....
1. My name is Helen, and I'm the member of Chai's family.
2. My principle of living is "Respect me 1st if you want to gain my respect". Do not betrayed me if you dont want to be betrayed. I hate to being cheated and been treated like an idiot.
3. I like sunset, especially the sunset at the beach.
4. I like design but design is not my major.
5. My passion of travelling will never changed. It is the only way to motivate me to work harder, live happier.
6. My family is very important to me. I Love my Mum, My Dad, My sis. They are the one and only for me. Will do everything as long as they are happy for it. Will never ever allowed anyone to hurt them. But if they do get hurt, i will make sure those hurt them to get the same fate too. The conclusion is, I love my family and they are Inreplaceable.
7. I like to take pictures and I like to being taken as well. Recently was addicted to DSLR. Still saving for it and hopefully can get it by next year. My favourite scenery is the beauty of nature. It could be sky, raindrops, grass, trees, birds, and anything that is belong to this earth la~~
8. I like to make friend. But somehow you will find, a few among them are just a friendshit to you. It's getting harder to find a true friendship, therefore, please appreciated the people around you that have cheers your life. And I would like to take this opportunities to thanks those who ever hurt me, scolded me, backstab me, and insulted me. Without your "great effort", I won't become stronger and better. Without you, I will never knew there are more others optional that are awaits for me to choose. So, i do sincerely thanks all of you. Hope you are satisfied of what you have done to me and you will always happy for that. And I don't mind if you are just fooling me or hurting me,because after all, I'm the one who getting better and not you. So, welcome if you like me, and fuck off if you hate me. I don't give a damn or begging you to leave your footprints in my life.
For all my friends, my besties, my buddies, thanks for coming to my life and thanks for being by my side whenever I need it. I'm appreciated everyone of you and it is really my pleasure to knowing each of you.
9. PheWww~~Well, I'm out of things to write.
10. Perhaps, there are only 9 things that you ought to know about me. So, that is all for now.
